Nothing will ever be the same.
That was pretty much my first thought when my airplane took off for the skies on my way to my first mission trip. That and awesomely, beautiful everything was and how in awe of God I was.
I knew this trip would be different from other normal road trips when I started off giving glory to God. In my life lately, everything has been about me and the only time I really cared about God was at church. Nothing is the same now.
From the time I heard God tell me to go to Mexico, everything fell in place. The money came in. The flight was arranged. The supplies were bought. There was nothing holding me back except the fear that I would change. Which I did. And I will never regret it.
I knew He wanted me to go to Ixmiquilpan, Hidalgo in Mexico. I felt like He was going to show me what He wanted me to do with my life. And He did. What I didn't know was how radically He was going to turn my life around.
Instead of being indifferent, annoyed, angry, and depressed, He melted my heart into a joyful, smiling, content, peaceful, puddle of tears. Which is huge. Because before Mexico I hardly ever cried, didn't like it. Now I cry all the time. hahaha.
I have become so enraptured by God's beauty and saving grace. I want to fall more and more in love with Him every day, every hour, every minute, every second. I have wasted so much time thinking only of myself and what I want and "need" that I could not see the needs of those around me.
Mexico opened my eyes to the way people outside of America, or even inside, live. And it broke my heart. Never in my life have I wanted to pack so many people into my suitcase to take home with me so I could love them and feed them and give them all my money. But the thing about the people there is that while they are poor in body, they are wealthy in spirit. Unlike here in America, they God the glory for every single thing they have. Like toilet seats and toilet paper.
With all my heart I want to go back. But for the next year, I plan on getting as close to God as possible so I can share His light with the people there and here.
God is my everything. No turning back.
And this, my friends, is only a piece of the huge story. But do not fret. More will come as time passes.
I pray that God will bless you and keep you and cause His face to shine upon you. Amen.
Stay strong and focus on God. He will make your paths straight. Adios!
